Fifty-One Years of Bulimia — and the Inner Shift That Stopped It

I was 8 years old and being rejected by my parents, I couldn't do anything else than filling myself with food for years until I discovered that I could actually throw up the food as well. And that became a down downhill for my illnesses. I've been a student of Dr. Joe since um 2019 and I came to Dr. Joe to become fulfilled inside. I did come with a lot of these diseases at the time. One of them was asthma, severe asthma condition and the other one um that was controlling my life was I was bimic. It took me over 51 years to um stop hurting myself. It didn't come overnight for me. It took years of learning to love myself, learning to respect my body, um doing the work um on and off on a regular basis and slowly discovering the love inside of me, the love from others, receiving the love, being able to to honor that part was really difficult for me. It had to become first before I could even think about receiving that love. It slowly slowly slowly accelerated and my heart about 3 years ago at one Dr. Joy event opened so big and the love went first to Dr. Joe himself then to the whole community and it came back to me instantly at that retreat. I changed everything in my home physically from the coffee machine to the bed to the food to everything. I changed my job. I became a nutritionist, a health coach. I wanted to know how to love my body with food in the opposite way that I've been doing for 51 years. That was my way to coping with what I was doing with my body. as a volunteer in this community has really helped. Um getting the love from this community and getting being able to give the love back first to others before coming to me um and showing receiving being able to receive the love from others was the hardest part. And when that little bit of love that you start accepting from others starts to really get into this body, then you go, "Wow, how can I how can I use the food to destroy my body? How can I use mostly the junk food to to to almost kill myself?" So three years ago was the big big big aha moment for me and I I'm sharing this because I want to know people that it gets really the fact to start loving yourself and loving the food honoring the food that the Gaia gives you you honoring yourself to me there's no way I can ever damage mentally or physically life is Good. Life is about giving back. Life is about helping others. My heart is so open. I love my life, my children, my life, my love, my home, this community. I feel like walking on water. I don't know makes any sense, but that's what it is.