' is what finally broke through. Spira links it to Meister Eckhart's claim about life in God.
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Hi. Um, I don't really have a question. It's more of a sharing slashgratitude um that I wanted to share with you. Um so the context is and it's connected to what that man was sharing um about his deep struggles is that I I when I heard him I felt really touched because I I had many years of waking up in the morning and my first thought was like [ __ ] I'm still alive. So I and I tried also everything in the arsenal from Iawaska to IOGA to regular psychiatrists and psych everything you can imagine I've done it and nothing would get me out of that suffering. So this is the context from which I'm coming from when I say um do you uh remember the conversation we had at Titinano where I asked you like um is it okay truly okay to simply be and you said yes I remember I took that I took that to heart like nothing else I was like I'm gonna live this like let let let's see what This brings me and this is what I wanted to share about is that like I really took it to heart at every moment every day even in the meditations here at home every day all the time I just keep leaning into simply being and two things have been happening. One of them is like just this joy and peace and lightness and and being being being being being being and it just keeps being being being and this this other piece which is like this this um much deeper layer of trauma emerged which I was terrified of like super super super scared and I rang one of my best friends and I said, "Look, I have I have this deep frozenness that's starting to thaw and these like whole bunch of feelings underneath it and I'm terrified. Can you just hold my hand so I can feel like and and she just held my hand and has been holding my hand and I just in sinking in being all of these layers. It's like um frozenness and restlessness and fear and disconnection and anger and e everything just bubbling up and I'm managing to to just stay to just be to just feel and just the simplicity of just being. I'm so so so so grateful. So grateful. So grateful. Did Did I tell you Stephanie about what Meister Echard said about this? He he said our life should be a life of just being. In so far as our life is a life of just being. To that extent it is a life in God. Isn't that beautiful? And I'll follow up with saying that like sometimes when like let's say the meditation this morning when it it's like very chaotic uh I just sink back into being and I remember this song of a artist who passed away recently that the chorus she would just say like it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay and then when I'm there and I'm starting to get like lost and confused and wondering and just in my head I just remember like it's okay it's okay it's okay and then it's just okay whatever whatever I'm experiencing is like this but but in the deepest sense like this deepest okayess. Yes. With whatever. Yes. Yes. Because that okayess it it it it comes from the felt sense of your being and that you're being it's it's like um again ma said there's a that there's a place in the soul that has never been wounded. He's referring to our being. So it it when when you when you feel it's okay that that that's that that that that feeling is being informed by the the inherent okayess the the inherent unwoundedness of your being. And it's from there that you derive this understanding. Everything is okay. However bad things may be on the surface, deep down there is a place in me that has never been wounded and everything is okay there.